Introspective

Ah, the Sunday night feeling of the end of a holiday.... Let's hope I can keep this blog up as we enter a busy term with sats, reports (sorry, I know I go on!) and general primaryness to plan.

Been feeling introspective today and dangerously on the verge of moping (as opposed to mopping, I'm never on the verge of that.)

As I lolled in the sea with K and E the other day, we chatted about all the usual things. School, the coming summer, how cold the water is, and MEN! As she asked me if I have had a relationship since the Evil Ex (husband), I was forced to confront the answer that was a resounding NO! Oh shit. This has set me aback a bit and brought the fact home that although I have had forays into the world of men over the years, there has actually not been anyone you would call a 'boyfriend' (for want of a better term) . No one that I could call was"love". Or who has loved me. Before or after the EE. or even during! This is a situation that needs to be rectified! I am adamant that I will not live my life completely void of knowing what it feels like to trust a partner and to feel secure in the knowledge that they love you whatever happens. I SHALL click the "in a relationship" button on FB!! Is it dangerous to say I shall do it before Christmas? Now, apparently I am "really special". So do really special girls like me deserve to live a lonely life?? Surely not! Ok, rant over.... I will not turn this into a channel for my woes.

In other news. Who is looking at this? Am I just writing to myself? I would love to know who I am talking to. Maybe you could leave a comment on here to let me know you visited. Maybe even offer advice on the post above?